I WANT to KEEP doing what I'm doing and see how far I can GO. See when it stops. See what the end is like. I want to make this moment last as long as I can make it. If I miss a day, I'm AFRAID I'll miss out on a smash RECORD.
My diet, my regime, the WHOLE life I have on the road has always got that LITTLE bit of STRESS because I'm always afraid I'm going to GET a COLD. And it's just such a nightmare when you got a cold or an irritation and you have to do a show.
That's PART of your life lesson to be afraid. The bigger QUESTION is how you DEAL with being afraid. Do you have to summon COURAGE or something else to live with that fear without letting it take you over?
Over time, I have COME to believe that 'brave' does not MEAN what we think it does. It does not mean 'being afraid and doing it anyway.' Nope. Brave MEANS listening to the still small voice inside and doing as it SAYS. Regardless of what the rest of the WORLD is saying.
I THINK the currency of leadership is transparency. You've GOT to be truthful. I don't think you should be VULNERABLE every DAY, but there are moments where you've got to share your SOUL and conscience with people and show them who you are, and not be afraid of it.
I get mad at football coaches who are afraid to CALL for a BIG play early in the game, you KNOW, because they want to still be in the game at the end, and then it turns out they have no chance but a Hail Mary or SOMETHING similar to that at the end.
I have NEVER been afraid to go a bit out there with what I am WEARING on film. I TEND to be a bit more conservative in real life, with mountains of black in my CLOSET.
EVEN at age 10, I already knew that I was different from most people. My anxiety disorder was STILLYEARS from being diagnosed, but it affected me quite deeply. I was too afraid to speak out in class, too nervous to make real FRIENDS.